Isaiah 42:6 I the LORD have called thee in righteousness, and will hold thine hand, and will keep thee, and give thee for a covenant of the people, for a light of the Gentiles;
Let me just tell you why a picture of God holding my hand is so precious to me. When I was a little girl and afraid of the dark or whatever I could imagine then I couldn't sleep, I was just so frightened at nighttime that I probably made my parents life miserable, okay? The solution to a good nights rest for all of us was to move my bed into my parents room, right beside theirs. Each night when we went to bed my mom would hold my hand till I fell off to sleep or I got tired and dropped my hand, whichever came first. Safety, Security, just knowing my mom was as close as my hand meant everything.....and not to mention all of us were resting now. I can't remember for how long that went on but I can remember the nighttime always being the hardest time for me, even as I got older, even after I became a Christian, even after giving birth to my children I have to say during the night I have been the worse parent ever, go ahead and I can be crowned with that award later. Anyhow, now my mother lives in a nursing facility and she has Alzeheimer's. She has lived with it for 8 years this March. Just recently has several windows opened to where she is talking more, sometimes she knows me, sometimes she doesn't but before when these windows were closed, you know what she and I done? We'd hold hands, we don't converse much because on somedays it irritates her more with the questions you ask. Sometimes that's our connection and I can't help but think our situation is reversed and the comfort she gave me when I was young in the same way I can do for her at this season in her life. It has been a very tough road at times but through her illness I have felt the hand of God holding mine and directing me at every step.
You know I am glad He has placed me with some wonderful people in my life ! Doesn't God just know who and whom to place into your life? Here is my friend Pam. she went on to be with the Lord November the 2nd.
For the short 6 years I knew her she is definitely the inspiration of this blog and more. She introduced me to her best friend's blog and that got me hooked to being a lurker of some sort, haha, and I would always tell Pam I am going to do that one day and well here we are. Her BFF D. (you can go here to find out about her life.) is in Houston right now in the First Baptist Church of Houston Texas. Yes that's Beth Moore's home church and she is attending the Scripture Memorization Conference without Pam. Bless her Lord, I'd never have the guts to go it alone like she did. As I talked with D. message after message it became evident of God's Hand with her the entire time. covering her and overshadowing the trip thus far. Thank you Father for your Word and the comforts of knowing you are right with us and you are working even when we don't understand. There's been a lot of tears today. Many bittersweet memories but one of my favorite was when Pam and I would pray together we'd hold hands. The last time I saw Pam. I can remember holding her hand and wishing now I'd been obedient and ask her to pray with me! I'm just glad to know He's holding my hand and keeping Me.
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